I (22F) found my boyfriend (30M) ChatGPT logs—I found this

TL;DR: Found my boyfriend venting to ChatGPT about intrusive thoughts. Nothing with other women, but it still hurt. He says it wasn’t how he truly feels about me. I forgave him, but I’m still hurt. Unsure what to do.

After 3 years together, I’ve been feeling really insecure. My boyfriend has wandering eyes, even though he tells me I’m beautiful all the time and really takes care of me financially. Still, I couldn’t shake the feeling that he wasn’t being honest about how he really feels about me.

So, I went through his phone (yes, I know I violated his privacy) and found conversations between him and ChatGPT. I wasn’t looking for other women, and there wasn’t anything like that—but the conversations still hurt me a lot.

Here’s the messages I found:

-she keeps talking about buying a home and marriage together but I just have too many doubts

-I still think about sleeping with other girls, I don't think my partner is for me. There's traits I don't like about her

When he found out I’d been snooping, I confronted him. He said he’d been in a low place when we fight and was venting to AI about intrusive thoughts, and that those weren’t his true feelings toward me.

I forgave him, but I’m still hurt.