I'm just the embodiment of humilliation.

That's why everything goes wrong for me, I was born to be a scapegoat. I dont even deserve a warm meal (my trauma won't let me eat most of the time). In order to keep my weight on, I gotta eat high calorie snacks. And to stay full, I gotta drink a bunch of juice. Im always starving, Im always exhausted. I have nothing good to offer. Having the face and body i do gives me so much anxiety, its just so shameful. I always look dirty somehow, while everyone else always looks clean. No matter how many times i scrub my face, i look like a mess. Even if i were a belly dancer, nobody would want to look at that garbage. Because though I'm slender, I look like a monster. Im useless and a burden.