AITA because I wish she never made me feel like i could be loved, i hate her so so much

I worry this will come back to bite me

She and I hang out, we‘re both inexperienced and have NEVER done anything sexual ever.

She makes approaches on me, telling me she’s Horny, Hugs DEEP so deep, she could feel my yk what touch her and i don’t return the feelings feeling wrong about this, until she tries to kiss me on the mouth trying to take our first kiss, i back off, she goes in for another one but on the Cheek. I flustered, appear shocked she then lays onto the bed and says „come here“ i kiss her on her neck and she says in a playful voice „Stawpppp“ i kiss her two more times and stops. Suddenly her face goes cold and i hear the words „I feel like i cheated on my future Husband“ i ask if i did anything wrong and she says: „No, it felt good but it‘s not what i expected“ She goes home leaving me behind feeling defeated.

The day after, i call. We usually talk on the phone everyday. She doesn’t pick up and makes an excuse. She does the same thing 5 days in a row after that. Call -> „Busy rn“ -> „Okay“ -> Never calls back As i expected the Message: “I need a break, i really don’t feel like talking right now“

2 Weeks go by

I reach out making the stupid decision to type Me:„You still don’t feel like talking to me?“ Her:„No, if i felt like talking i would‘ve called.“

My stupid ass wanting to ask for advice from friends takes a screenshot of this. Which i forgot she could see.

She asks about it. (Need an excuse)I say it’s for a Photo album of people i used to know. She ask who would be in the Album. -side note: If you haven’t noticed, i‘m a fucking idiot. I say Old friends, passed relatives.

For the duration of the two weeks i think about the look she gave me. That look of disappointment. I couldn’t think of anything else everytime i saw a Womans face.

She calls out of the blue adding our friend who i was talking to a day ago to support her side and go against me, SHE COMPLAINED ABOUT THAT FRIEND BEFORE AND IGNORED HER FOR A WEEK UNTIL I TOLD HER TO TALK TO HER AGAIN, they go at me Aggressive and only talking to get their point across with no intention to understand me.

She talks about how „i am manipulative and selfish for trying to make her feel bad“, “i ask when did i want to do that“ she mentions how i took a screenshot only to see her reaction, i too embarrassed to share the fact i wanted to ask someone about her for advice say it really was only for the photo album. She doesn’t believe me. I go on about how her words impacted me, she doesn’t care. Calls me an Animal who would do something like that again. I explode asking her „what kind of bullshit is that?“

I hang up. write down my feelings and text her calling her a hypocrite for blaming me for the whole situation even though she led me on, she responded saying it‘s my fault and she’s not hypocritical at all.