I’m lost and don’t know where I’m going in life

I’ve never felt more suicidal than I do today. I’m tired of trying. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. Im so close to giving up at this point. I’m facing homelessness for the second time in two years. I have no family to lean on for support. My job is so overwhelming and I have no real skills so finding a new job isn’t an answer. The only light in my life is my husband, but it’s fucked up because he’s even more suicidal than I am so I can’t really bring up my true feelings otherwise we’d just end up dying together. I don’t want to die but at this point what else is there. I keep telling him and myself things will get better but it’s been 5 years and things just keep getting worse. I feel so stuck and don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like one day I’m going to come home to his body or he just won’t come home and if he dies then that really seals the deal.