saw mcr last night!

i mean it when i say this changed my life 😭 drove hours to chicago, spent 2 hours in traffic getting to the stadium, missed DEVO, rushed around and could NOT find out how to get to 312 for the LIFE of me, spent an hour figuring out how to get out and then walked 3 miles back to our car because my dad was stuck way past the stadium and had to pull over and couldn't turn around, but despite it all, it was SO worth it and the best time of my life. i've been in the trenches lately, dealing with a lot of SI and SH, but seeing them made me realize that i can feel happy. i've chased that feeling for years and finally got to experience it last night. i sobbed for half of it and screamed until i lost my voice, and i would give anything to do it again. we were up high and to the side, but i didn't care. i would've been thrilled to see them from an airplane. thank you to the awesome fans who were there, i really feel safe around you guys. thanks to mcr for saving my life ❤