August 31, 2025

I am slowly becoming the person I always hate. Yung actions niya sa nanay ko all throughout the years na magkakasama kami sa iisang bubong naaapply ko na sayo mula nung start ng taon. Recent events made me the person even I don't trust anymore. I know you hate me now. More dahil sa last na paguusap natin kanina. Sa mga asal at nasabi ko sa tawag na yun even nung Emong. Please heal. Be the best person na kilala ko. Go ace the licensure exam next year. Also be the best mom para sa kanya. Tell her na I won't be around anymore. Cong (aso) will always be in my care and will always remember you hanggang sa pagtanda niyong dalawa. You are great at finding people to take good care for you. Even your past helps you which is good. Kampante ako na you will find better people to guide you and be stronger than this.

I am sorry for all the things I've done. Sa mga tinago ko sayo and explanations na hindi mo maintindihan. For the misunderstandings na dahilan ng mga away natin. Sa nabuong insecurity sayo. Sorry for being childish and dragging problems thinking it would heal with time. Sorry kung hindi ako naging sapat sayo. I will always treasure this letters and pictures natin. Salamat at patawad. Malaya kana.

I’ve been rereading this letter every day. Yesterday, on my way home, I read it again. As I looked at the sea, it finally hit me... you were becoming exactly like your father. The way he treated your mother while having an affair with another woman, that’s exactly what you were starting to do to me when we got back together this January. Tell me, was it really that hard to admit you were already having an affair too, or at least developing feelings for someone else, while keeping me by your side like a fool? Now I see it clearly, you are nothing but the same as the man you hate the most.

And yet, you still had the nerve to tell me how to live my life and who I should become, after all the gaslighting and lies you told me. The pathetic excuses you made just to paint me as the immature and problematic one pero yung totoo ikaw yun. You are the one who never knew how to value, how to love, and how to be real.

You are a mirror of everything you despise, and I want nothing to do with that. I hope our paths never meet again not here, and not in the next life.

I know you will be able to read this, lurker ka dito at dito mo rin naman yan pinost. Maganda na ngang nangyari to bago pa kayo nagkita ni Y, hindi nya deserve makita ka makilala ka, buti nakakalimutan kana rin nya kahit papano.