I've decided to ghost my family

I'm a 27-year-old man and I recently discovered that realised my family hated on me. Not my real family but other side like cousin uncle etc. I have my mom an older brother and me. An other one who died like more than 10 years ago.

To make a long story short, I lived with some "cousins" for 3.5 years from 2021 and 2024 August. At that time i realised that they had a certain hatred towards me for different reasons that I don't actually know.

I was psychologically abused with constant micro-aggressions. For exemple, one of them use to tell me that I was nothing, stupid and the things is their were both enjoying it and i dont understand why

But the most part that hurt me a little bit is everything they use to said to me is what everyone use to thinks included my parents like everyone. So It had a big impact on me and even 1 year later after I cut ties with them I still have their remarks in my head, it's horrible. I can't move on. Its so bad that I even think to start a therapy or go to see a profesionnal who can help with what I've through but for now I can't I don't have any money.

And my mother is going crazy, or at least I think she already is. For example, today she made some chicken that wasn't cooked inside so we could eat it together. I tried to tell her it wasn't cooked and she started eating it to prove me wrong. Honestly, I don't know how we got here bro the meat was barely cook inside like it was red. But idk maybe she has dementia. Her home is always dirty... They had some insects like mites in the kitchen or even coackroch bro just a little bit but they are still here.

But seriously, I don't know how we got here. All of this because of a suicide. Ever since one of my brothers committed suicide, everything's been broken bro. People start become crazy like this is a devastated situation. And i can't save my mom she's just on another dimension now and I will about to abandonment her. They so many things to say but fuck men I cant do this anymore. Once a get money i just go

And some.people think that its eazy to do this but one things that i know when i will ghost everyone is that they will have some real consequences with my mom. I think she will be 100% insane