i don’t know what to do

so this is like my second ever post on reddit and i’m kinda scared but i’ve been struggling with disordered eating for around 4 years, it jumps between bulimia and anorexia if that’s relevant, but anyways im supposed to be in recovery right now and i thought i was doing well but recently ive had a lot of old habits sneak up on me such as sleeping to avoid eating, checking my stomach in every reflection and it’s like my body is trying to throw up, i’m not attempting to force it but my body is if that makes sense? i don’t know. is this part of recovery or am i verging relapse.