I have no friends

Hello everyone,

I got some problem regarding to my socialization. I have a question for you. Am I the only one person who has no friends and a partner in real life? I suppose, not. I think, many people could be like this.

To find some people, that is why me and some other users may sit in social media, such as, SnapChat, Telegram, Instagram, Facebook, NektoMe, Discord, and etc. I have tried a lot of this.

For the last few summers, I have been sitting in social media more and more just to look for some new friends. During the summer of 2024, I spent all 3 months just to find some girlfriend/friend. How do you think, did I find a single person to spend time with in real life? Of course. The same answer is - no, I didn't.

You may tell me that I am a boring person. Well, could be. But lemme explain the situation from other side. I isolated myself from anything during my studies since I needed to work hard every single day, especially, in the near presence of exams, tests and etc. I could even have to study during night-times. I stopped proceeding at my hobbies, also I stopped making friends. I simply closed myself up in-between 4 walls. And, the result is that I crave for friends and a girlfriend while feeling loneliness feeling which is the main thing that pushes me to stay in the social media.

What do I mean by the word "crave"? It means that I feel so contrasting feeling of loneliness which makes me easily get entrusted to some person, open up myself and get connected with the person. Because I have nobody next to me in real life anymore for the last 5 years. Except, my parents and brother, of course. But it is not enough for me.

Hence, I am opened up for anything new since then. I am eager to meet with a person if we get closer and a common language. But there is another problem. People in social media re not willing to meet at all. They are not willing to make friends too. They are ignoring me. They block me. They simply stop communicating for some reason and do not find a single time during some few days to answer on my messages. I feel exhausted and furious in the same time. But I also feel out of energy. It is really mixed, complex feeling and state which is destroying myself because I crave more and more. Loneliness is still here. I feel that soon I will just delete all of my social media just to start living life because I see no sense anymore in it.

Also, what I mean "a friend" and "a partner" is that a friend is the one I can meet with and spend time together irl having common interests and common language. The similar goes to the "partner".

So, in conclusion, I hope to find some people telling me their opinions and may be some friends. Just text me "hug". I would be happy.

Peace.

I am from Latvia, Rīga. Pēteris, 20.