How does anyone keep going?

How does anyone keep going?

I've destroyed my family, wife, lost the house, job will be gone, young children losing their father,, and potentially spending years in a penitentiary as a SO.

Every single time I open my eyes I hope for a moment it's all a dream but it's not. It's real and somehow I never thought it would be like this.

How do you convince yourself to keep waking up everyday, waiting for what's to come? How to you cope with these feelings everyday?

I feel absolutely hopeless and would do anything to not have my kids and family lose everything they've ever known. But it's too late