Past/ALTERNATE life in south america/guns/army/etc

Hi,

SO, I do have a problem calling it a past life because I believe it's all at once so I call it alternate lives. If anyone knows of a sub that believes in specifically that I would love some recs!
Anyway... I have always had memories/dreams of another life. I am in the jungle/tropical place but it seems like South America like Colombia, Chile, somewhere like that. I am a woman, but I'm an army of some sort. There are always guns.

So I went to a museum today. I'm not usually into them actually. Anyway, I saw this board full of guns and such, but it was the hand guns that got me. These little black black guns. I remembered, they were an extension of me; no, they weren't scary - what was out THERE was scary and since forever these black handguns were a part of me - a comfort. Like my own hand. I've never felt it so fully before. How comfortable i was with them, how they were safety and duh, you don't leave home without them. But it matched with my memories of being in the jungle and having these guns.

Anyway there's more to say but I guess I was scared to share it. I've had dreams and visions of other lives that are like this, in this climate, with guns, possibly army. And it's funny because it's so diametrically opposed to my life now. I am not a gun person - I am a peace and non harm blah blah person.

I understand if this was weird - I'm a little tipsy right now. I don't even know what I'm expecting. Just someone to tell me I'm not crazy idk.