I can't even cry anymore...

But my hands are shaking. I'm trying to be strong, not keep trying to reach out, but all I want to do is beg you to stay. I said I wouldn't try again, but I said that because I was afraid to be hurt. I didn't want to get discarded and that's exactly what happened in the end. I'm so embarrassed, I really am. I wish I hadn't said anything, and just let it go. We'd be fine right now if I hadn't gotten so reactive.