i feel like such an outsider after losing 85 pounds.

at my heaviest, i was 195 pounds and typically wore a size 14 and an XL. i’ve lost 85 pounds since then and now im 110 pounds, usually size 2 and an XS. but i feel like there are so few people that get the feelings im starting to have.

i don’t really consider myself skinny and i don’t feel like i am a “skinny” person despite my weight and clothing sizes because i don’t look the same as girls who’ve been thin their whole lives or even girls who’ve lost weight to get to that size but were never actually overweight or obese to begin with.

i don’t feel like i relate to other women who were around my size and lost weight either. i feel like the more mainstream weight loss journeys i see on social media involve stopping once they’re at a mid-healthy weight or have a focus on getting more muscular rather than going all the way to the lower end of the bmi scale.

i still have a bit of a stomach pouch and loose skin so i don’t look like the conventionally skinny girls. i am pretty neutral about it because to me, it’s still better than the former but i feel like an outsider in just about every group. fat, skinny, plus size, midsize, formerly bigger and lost weight, i don’t really feel like anyone talks about how it feels after so much weight loss.

i hope this is okay to post seeing as i have nowhere else to talk about it and i feel like no one gets it. i’m still incredibly proud of my achievement even if i feel like i’m kinda in a bubble or “category” by myself.