Do you know what one of the shittiest things to go through is

Do you know what one of the most shittiest things is about your ex leaving you for someone else.. there's no grieving period for them. There's no heartbreak, or pain, no missing you or wanting to be around you. There's no urge to tx you or need to know how you are. It doesn't matter how much you did for them or how much you showed them you loved them cos you're the worst kind of person hlin their minds. You're weak and insecure, and emotionally immature and they are relieved about breaking up with you. You do not matter to them, and you never really did to begin with . You're left wondering why she doesn't value yoi enough to want to make it work, make the friendship you previously had before the relationship work, how she can completely concretely cut you out of her life regardless of the promises she made to maintain a contraction.. you wonder what betrayal you committed against her that justifies her ghosting you like this! Why does she not identify all the compromises and adjustments and all the support you made and gave to her during the relationship, does that not mean something to her? You're the one left suffering while she is 5months into her new relationship I am 5 month into suffering and it's shit, It's really really shit. She fine, I always knew she would be, and I'm here suffering and left wondering.

It's crap im not a second thought in her mind. I don't get that after all I did and it just adds to the pain of it all..