No one is helping me

It’s crushing me to not get help. I am 19 years old and my life has been put on hold for the last 9 months. I’m an MMA fighter and 2024 was the best year of my life. Couldn’t have been happier and fought 6 times in the year. Was so hungry, motivated, happy, thankful everyday. I won the belt November 1st 2024 and that was the last time that I have fought feeling healthy. After I won I took a week off from the gym to just chill after a hard fight camp. This is important for me to note so I can rule out that something happened in the fight to cause all this. I began training again and felt good everything was still completely normal. Then one day on December 24th 2024, everything changed. I woke up that day with my eyes burning, they felt tired and my neck super hot and felt the need to always crack it. Then a few days later I woke up in the middle of the night and almost called 911 because I was gasping for air and my heart felt like it was beating out of my chest and it felt like I was gonna pass out. I was able to fall back to sleep. I went through the next 4 weeks feeling like this feeling shitty and 0 motivation, and feeling randomly nauseous and fought on February 7th 2025. Keep in mind too, I took no damage in the fight so it can’t be related to that. After the fight I told myself I wasn’t gonna train and just wanted to focus on my health. I just wanted to get better. Really tried taking care of myself but started feeling depressed. Went to Florida for a week with my boy and tried to take my mind off things. In Florida I felt like I was dying every day. Got rushed to the hospital as well where they told me I was dehydrated. Over the past 9 months I’ve experienced

• burning eyes
• constantly tired and exhausted
• confusion
• memory loss
• depression
• easily agitated
• loss of feeling in hands
• loss sense of touch
• loss of feeling in tongue
• feeling out of body/ derealization
• Unable to get motivated
• Pressure in face
• Tmj flaring
• Burning in eyes and tmj that wraps around head I was diagnosed with chronic anxiety and given Cymbalta but that only stopped a few problems. It got rid of the confusion and memory loss and depression but I’m still unable to feel happy. What I still feel is pressure in face, sometimes feeling out of body, tiredness, eyes and tmj burning, sometimes confusion, inability to get motivated or feel that good thankful feeling, and sometimes loss of feeling/sense of touch. I’ve had 2 brain MRIs, 2 neck MRIs, 2 upper cervical MRIs, countless amounts of blood work, checked for autoimmune, been to eye doctor, neuro ophthalmologist, and a neurologist but they didn’t do any tests except having me squeeze her hands and draw a picture and test my memory which I only got 2/3 things on. She sent me on my way. I’ve had countless ER visits I just want to get back to normal so bad so I can train and fight again. I suffer everyday with this if anyone could point me in the right direction I’d appreciate that so much!