Need help starting

Alright so I’ve been wanting to get a more feminine body for years now but struggle to find a good workout routine that genuinely works and suits me well, to give some information I’m male, 219 pounds, and 5,7 in height, I’ve been trying to lose weight while also shaping my body to become more feminine but nothing seems to work, any pointers on how I can start this? Ontop of which I’ve been wanting to start taking estrogen and blockers for quite awhile however I currently don’t have the mons for anything big not do I even really know how to start on that ether…just really need some help figuring things out, it would mean a lot