relapse hour

It’s been a while since I got cheated on, but honestly it still haunts me. I hate how it changed the way I see relationships. I can’t shake this awful feeling that no matter what, I’ll never be the only person to someone. Like, even if they say I am, my brain just whispers “what if he has someone else?”

It makes me paranoid, insecure, and honestly tired. I don’t want to be this way, but being cheated on made me feel so replaceable. Like I’ll never actually be enough.

I miss being able to trust without overthinking. I just… needed to put this somewhere.