I feel like I've wasted my whole life

18F here. Yeah, as I said in the title, I feel like I've wasted my childhood to be exact. I don't have much memories from ages from 6 to 12/14 due to the traumatic events that took place. Regardless, many people who are from abusive households had something that kept them going, interests, talents, ect. I feel like I did nothing, haven't learned anything. Never readed any books throughout childhood, everything I studied in school just disappeared from my head. Sometimes I feel like I lack basic knowledge about the world and life skills. I've wasted my life scrolling on my phone for hours daily, couldn't finish a single task or start anything. I also never travelled much, my family never took me to museums or anything like that, never played any sports, never been athletic in any way idk. I feel like I've never done anything that would make me worthy or interesting, just waisted years of my life to be worse than average human being. I feel like I don't have any interests that I would know about more, just the basics. People say that I have time, but I won't get back those years that I've lost. I feel like I've fallen behind so badly and I will never be able to recover. I'm sorry for my English it's not my first language.