Días confusos / Parte 10

‎Part 1 ‎ ‎Part 9 ‎ ‎This chapter is a massive spoiler for a fan just starting Kanokari. Many crucial moments in the story are spoiled. ‎ ‎Continue reading at your own risk. ‎ ‎Will Chizuru manage to get everyone's forgiveness? Can she be 100% honest? ‎Kazuya wakes up, but.... ‎ ‎All parts are linked; you can go from Part 1 to this one just by following the links at the top and bottom. ‎ ‎The Storm arrives and hits hard on this dark night; silence invades the waiting room as Chizuru and the girls re-enter. ‎Everyone involved in the lie is present; the princess begins her monologue: ‎ ‎Chizuru takes a long, deep breath, gathering her strength; she speaks calmly: ‎ ‎"First of all, I ask you please to listen to everything I am going to tell you, I don't ask you to believe me, but listen to what I have to say, I beg you" ‎ ‎The Kinoshita Family says nothing; they just let her continue speaking. ‎ ‎"Let me explain how it all started, as you know I'm a rental girlfriend, when I met Kazuya I had only been doing it for a few months, I got into this job because it was a fast and comfortable source of income, this allowed me to pay the tuition for an acting school and fulfill my dream of being an actress" That is my reason for working there." ‎ ‎"I met Kazuya one day through the rental girlfriend system and I thought he was a very kind guy, however, I was surprised that when we went on another rental date he transformed into a totally opposite guy" ‎ ‎"Later I discovered that he was suffering a lot, if you recall Mami-san revealed she was his ex-girlfriend, which is true, Kazuya was having a terrible time after she left him from one day to the next." "Without yet knowing anything about that situation, I accompanied him to the hospital and he introduced me to you as his girlfriend, something that annoyed me a lot at that moment, but then the lie just grew when my Grandma found out" ‎ ‎"A few weeks after we met Ruka-san on a double date, she reveals herself to also be a rental girlfriend and she finds us out, later, that week she decides to stop being a rental girlfriend and confesses her love to Kazuya, I can assure you because I was present" ‎"At that moment she asks him to go out as a real couple, but Kazuya refuses, and she blackmails him into telling the truth to everyone if he doesn't accept." "So we decided to play along, agreeing that she would be a trial girlfriend" ‎ ‎Everyone present listens carefully, however Kuri, upon hearing this part, is in shock for a few seconds ‎ ‎"Then at the family meeting at the end of the year she decides to show up and tell the whole truth, and she almost succeeds, but she stops" ‎"Then she appeared again on Kazuya's birthday to try again", "Much later Kazuya decides to end their relationship, but she refuses to let him go and she decides to go with us to the Hawaiian Resort and you already know what happened" ‎"During all this time she has tirelessly sought to win Kazuya's heart and turn him into her real boyfriend, but Kazuya kept refusing, the reason, that he was in love with me" ‎ ‎Everyone is surprised, the Kinoshita Family is pensive, the puzzle seems to be coming together, Kuribayashi disconnects from this reality, his brain takes time to react and it overloads ‎ ‎"During all that time we had several rental dates and we became closer, I took him to see my Grandma several times because she wanted to see him." ‎"We agreed several times to tell you that we broke up and to end everything, but we were selfish and our desire to protect the smiles of our beloved grandmothers was greater than our desire to continue with the dream of the two of them thinking that we were a happy couple" ‎ ‎"Later, I was in a state of professional dissatisfaction as an actress and Kazuya without me asking him was the person who helped me not to give up, however no matter how much I wanted it I couldn't get any roles, and then weeks later, on Kazuya's birthday, my grandmother's health declined, I told Kazuya that she was in a serious condition and he asked me to let go of the lie and tell my grandmother everything, at that moment I was a coward and I stopped him, I didn't want my Grandma to know that if she was so sick." ‎ ‎Chizuru's voice begins to become unstable, the pain in each word can be felt ‎ ‎"My acting career wasn't taking off and I felt very frustrated and again Kazuya came to me with a crowdfunding plan to create a movie and fulfill my deepest dream of showing my grandmother a movie where I'm acting" ‎ ‎"Due to life's injustices, I didn't manage to have her see it in the movie theater, her health declined much more and Kazuya was again the guy who brought the movie to her on a laptop so she could see it like that" ‎ ‎"Again he asked me to tell my grandmother everything, but I stopped him again, I couldn't bear to sadden my grandmother in her last moments." ‎"Unfortunately my grandmother died shortly after and I was destroyed inside, however as the stupid woman that I am, I pretended to be okay and didn't want to ask for help. "Kazuya noticed that and on a dream date he destroyed my facade and I let out all the pain crying a lot with him" ‎ ‎Chizuru's voice becomes more depressing the more she talks, this infects those present ‎ ‎"Without much time passing, Grandma Nagomi invited us on the Resort trip and you already know what happened" ‎"Mami-san during that time pressured me as much as she could to tell them the truth, until she got tired of waiting and revealed everything with lies included" ‎ ‎Without realizing it, she starts raising her voice, her voice mixes deep pain, desperation and sadness, the whole atmosphere seems to become a final speech of a character who is about to die ‎Her breathing is agitated, she starts talking much faster than normal ‎ ‎"As you have been able to hear, Kazuya was always willing to reveal the truth, I was the great coward who always prevented it from happening" ‎ ‎"That day, at that moment in the pool, I saw a Kazuya who didn't hesitate for a second to protect me and he lunged to my defense without hesitation, in those moments, I was feeling a very great pain in my heart and didn't know what to do, and then after Kazuya's display of love I didn't know how it happened but my body moved, perhaps by instinct and I went to kiss him without any doubt" ‎ ‎Her mind clouds over, her heart is taking control of her words ‎ ‎"After that my mind and heart collided and I didn't know what to do, and I was stupid to distance myself from him, I caused him another trauma, the guilt still haunts me today, but he came back to my side without hesitation" ‎ ‎"I felt even more confused about my feelings and I asked him for a little more time to give him an answer to his confession, after that we lived together for a month and we ended with a memorable date where I, Chizuru Ichinose, destroyed his hopes again by rejecting him for reasons that today I can say were stupid" ‎ ‎Regret and guilt join the mix of feelings in Chizuru's voice ‎ ‎"Then, the day he left my house, I went and gave him a kiss out of an uncontrollable impulse of love, at that moment he said something that made my heart explode, my logic was destroyed in that instant and my instinct took control of my body." ‎ ‎"Again I became a coward and I ran away from him, without telling him a single word more because of the shame I felt, I let him go again" ‎ ‎Chizuru has not stopped talking for a second, the people present don't have time to say anything, they just listen and their feelings seem to be a rollercoaster without brakes ‎ ‎"And speaking of the present, I received a great role and like the big fool that I am, I put my attention on it, however I had to tell Kazuya my feelings and I called him today to confess everything, but fate had another path prepared for us" ‎ ‎Resentment appears and takes over Chizuru for a few moments ‎ ‎"Finally, everything that Mami-san said about being a cheating 'slut' is a vile lie, but of course, I don't know if you can believe the woman who has been lying to you for years or her, it's your decision, my conscience is clear" ‎ ‎Chizuru is reaching her limit, she can't take it anymore, but she's not finished yet, she must hold on until she says it all, she starts to sob between words. ‎ ‎"I can't simply ask for your forgiveness, I don't know if I deserve it, but just let me tell you one more thing" ‎ ‎Chizuru reached the limit, she starts screaming with hatred toward herself, but also with a touch of nostalgia and love ‎ ‎*"I, Chizuru Ichinose, the dumbest and most stupid woman in this world, I beg you please not to blame Kazuya for anything, he is the kindest, most considerate, and most selfless man I have ever known in my entire life, he doesn't deserve your hatred, I am the only one to blame for all of this, I am the one who is going to endure all of your hatred, your scorn, everything, because he always wanted to tell you the truth and he still agreed to continue with the lie for my sake, that's how good Kazuya Kinoshita is, the only man I love!!!!"* ‎ ‎Chizuru finally stops talking, she said everything she had been holding in, she told the truth, she was able to free herself from those chains that tied her down. ‎ ‎Her body was freed from this heavy burden she had been carrying, however, right now she is crying like a child on the floor, her image of a perfect, elegant, and strong girl is gone, this is the real Chizuru, as none of the people present had ever seen her. ‎ ‎Mini and Sumi rush to hug their friend and start crying with her in a triple hug, silence returns to the room, seconds that seem like days pass and finally Grandma Nagomi speaks: ‎ ‎*"Chizuru....."* ‎ ‎We cut the scene for a moment, let's go to another place: ‎ ‎We observe a man in a hospital bed, that man is none other than Kazuya Kinoshita, we get closer little by little until we see him slowly open his eyes. ‎ ‎Kazuya, still drowsy, not fully awake, thinks: ‎ ‎"Where am I, what happened? my head hurts, and my cell phone? ‎I have to talk to my mom, she's probably worried, damn I don't have it here, I have to find it but I feel very weak, I don't have time for this, come on get up body, no, it's useless, I don't have the strength, I have to wait... for someone to come. ‎ ‎"Seriously but what happened? When did I get here? It doesn't matter, someone come now! I urgently need to talk to the woman I love, I need to see her, someone give me my cell phone, I need to call her now!!! She must be very worried." ‎ ‎Dramatic pause, Kazuya takes a deep breath and sighs, then speaks with a face of being daydreaming: ‎ ‎*"I still can't believe that perfect and beautiful woman is my girlfriend, Wait a little, I'm coming for you Mami-chan.....!!"* ‎ ‎*** Kazuya's birthday is approaching ‎How will everyone react to this final revelation? *** ‎ ‎_________Uff, that was a long, very long speech, what did you think?, was it okay like this or was it too long, I don't know, what is your opinion?, For my part, I'm satisfied with how it turned out, even so, it was exhausting to remember everything, review the manga, and write it in detail, but I tried to have Chizuru say everything as much as possible, omitting some moments that I don't consider vital______ ‎ ‎*** ........To be continued..... *** ‎