Need a Taurus Perspective

Sooooo i want to keep this short, but i am madly in love with a Taurus man.

We have been in a weird situationship for 10+ years. Throughout these years we have both been in various relationships and were treating our relationship as more friends with benefits.

We have had ups and downs but no matter what we so far have always returned to eachother. He told me that ever since he met me he cant forget what I stirred in him and he has only ever experienced this type of chemistry with me.

Recently i have told him that i want something more and that we shouldn't just be having sex anymore. I want to date him. He told me that my recent breakup is too fresh and he wants me to clean house which i agree, but he doesn't seem to want to budge on dsting quite yet.

We spent the night talking for hours and doing you know what.

However, at the end of the night i told him he knows how i feel and this is good bye. Im completely open to dating him but he should reach out to me in the future if he wants that.

What struck me most is that as we were heading to the door, held hands, locked eyes etc, it was obvious he was holding back tears. I tried to give him one last kiss but he said no, it would make this harder.

Anyways, i keep spiraling thinking about what he's thinking. Will he reach out to me in the future? It was one of the most memorable moments of my life -- that night that is.