I just want to feel like myself again

I stopped taking my last dose almost 2 weeks ago, and I’m currently still feeling so hopeless & emotionless. It seems like all I’m feeling is immense anxiety and I’m getting these intrusive thoughts. It’s getting to the point where I can’t tell apart my thoughts, from my insecurities or worries that are surfacing. It makes me so sad and worried that I can’t feel love, I love my fiance so much but I feel like I’m not having any emotions towards him besides jealousy over other people wanting him, or fear of him leaving. I know I love him and it makes me sad that I feel like I’m convincing my brain what I know in my heart. (I understand these conflicting thoughts also stem from physiological trauma) but before Effexor I never questioned my love for him, and now it seems like it least come up once a day, part of me knows it’s my brain trying to get to me so it targets the most important thing to me. Had this been an issue for anyone, and how long did it take for your emotions to come back? Specifically love.