Career. Depression. Suicidal thoughts. Please help.

hey all. I'm 25. female. indian. very middle class family. hold masters in english literature. i don't want a government Job. just enough stability and income from private jobs. recently i got a job but my dad didn't like it. he said " I'll give you 1 lakh and 1 year to stay in the house after that you are on your own. what to do? therd is no equality. my brother studied in a cbse school, best education, went out of city to study but i studied in a government school, wasn't allowed to go out. but i don't want that life. i see people getting jobs, money everything and i feel small. i don't have financial authority. no independence and i hate it. i feel like dying. what should i do?