I hate that you didn’t choose me

You didn’t. If you always had to choose her then why were you with me for the first place. If you always ment to choose her then why did you say you loved me. If it was always her then why did you came so close to me (both emotionally and physically).

Do you even realise on how many levels you have fucked up. Do you? I am clearing your mess since one and last year. Found myself on fuvking anti depressants. I hate what you have done, i have every bit of your memory, they haunt me. I hate you, i despise you. It hurts me the most. I felt like this is it. This is my home. This IS WHAT I HAVE EVER WANTED. I have been waiting for a guy like you my entire life. I fucking cherished you and i made sure you knew it too. But what did you do? You were lying all along, you couldn’t stop yourself. You close to play with me. I hate you ani, i fucking hate you