the worst feeling imo

The absolute worst feeling is when I see guys that used to go to my school like I remember them as little boys, and then when I see them again and I recognize them, but they’ve grown so tall, have muscles, deep voice, so masculine and everything and I just saw them go from a boy to a man. while im stuck here in the wrong fucking body idk it just makes me feel like absolute shit.. i wish that was my life, like im not even on t yet and everything is taking so long. and i don’t know how to cope with this, i mean there is not much to do but im stressed cuz im already 19 n what if i start too late n wont ever pass, idk i need someone to calm me down? i know its not too late but im sure yall understand