Missing doing crocheting

TW ; su*cide.

I've been diagnosed with Depression and suicidal thoughts. I started crocheting from last year , because of my suicidal thoughts as a coping mechanism. It helped a lot, emotionally and made feel proud of myself. I've made from a top to a beanie , bag and toys for my cats. I could grab a hook and yarn and create things , I didn't know I was this talented and it also healed me in another way. But now my Depression worsned, I'm on medication. First two weeks was hell because of medication, the problem is I lost every interest in everything. I can't even do any art , I lost my creativity. I don't what to do anymore. I miss crocheting, now its like I don't have any connection with it. Because of meds all I feel is numb, maybe I'm improving but Idk. This feeling once which comforted me is sitting on my table as a stranger.