Today was a good day. *Read if your having a hard day💙*

I came here last week ranting and was in a dark place at that moment. I know a lot of us come here just to rant because no one else in our lives truly understand what it's like to be with a narcissist. They may think they do because most people do show a trait or two so they may understand on some level maybe but they don't truly know how it is to be with who shows all of those traits, not just 1 or 2. This community has helped me so much. Today I figured I'd come give some hope and remind you not every day will be this hard. There's hope and there's time always 💜

I had a moment a bit ago. I'd started talking so someone about a year ago but like just recently have we been able to really text and talk more for certain reasons. Well today he did something that hurt my feelings and he continued to make me feel small and like I was to much. It was very easy for him to just turn off his phone knowing I needed him and some reassurance In that moment. I've told him all I've been thru. I hated ranting to him about my ex of course but sometimes I just had to explain why I am how I am and how since this is long distance there's goina be times that I have a moment and over think and worry. I've known him for a while and he always gave me this peaceful feeling always relief even when everything was falling apart. Which is a big reason as to why I even wanted us to talk again in the first place.

So I cried and cried and begged like a lost puppy. Over explained myself once more. Even tho he knows why im feeling this way. Then I put my phone down took a breath and put on the TV to not think about it. He's not goina answer it's just goina make him block me or just take longer to reach out idk but I'm not doing this.

In that moment tho I said fuck it. I've dealt with this for 8 years and I'll be goddamned if imma let someone make me feel like this again. Nope. Idc if we've talked a year. I just got to the point I even feel like dating again and only really felt that way because he is a good guy he is but like no one's worth that anymore. Yah it breaks my heart I tried really hard to show him I wasn't the same person I was when I was 20. I've done all I can at this point. I know what I want my life too look like in 10 years and weather its just me and my kids or someone wants to tag along IDC but I won't allow myself to ever get to the point again where I get stuck in another awful situation.

Alot of us question can we really trust anyone how do I know if imma see the red flags?! Just move slow. You'll see them. If they do something to make you question your self worth leave. Run. Narc or not fuck that person and protect your peace ☮️💜

I love all of you!! If you ever need to talk please reach out! Keep your head up and just know your worth it always! 😉