[M4F] the older I get the more breeding feels like a purpose not a kink

Is there anything more passionate or beautiful than breeding, anything that makes you more complete? I have never been able to indulge my breeding kink, never had a girlfriend into it. My ex actually thought it was disgusting and degrading to woman. This led to me trying to repress the thoughts, the desires, the urges but this hasn't worked. If anything it has just made them stronger and far more of an obsession.

I can't get the idea of breeding out of my thoughts, it is undoubtedly an obsession. The sense that there is nothing more passionate and it is why I was born. My purpose in existence, that is more important than anything I have achieved in my life. I don't know why it am so obsessed, why I think it is so hot but breeding is consuming my thoughts.

I want to know if there is anyone else like me out there, obsessed with breeding and understands it a little bit better. Can provide a different view point on it all. Does the craving ever go away or will it only get worse the older I get?