Libido & sexual attraction changes off T

So I detransitioned due to pressure from my partner to do so due to lack of attraction towards me from my partner despite my partner being attracted to men and women. So I’ve been off T for a little over a month and I just don’t have as high of a libido anymore and honestly even when I am horny I’d rather just do it myself now. My partner however has been the most attracted to me I’ve seen them be in a very long time trying to initiate every day sometimes multiple times a day. But the thing is…I’m just not into it. In fact I find their attempts to initiate annoying and pushy. I’ll say no and they beg for it until I just want it over with and say yes. On T I loved dick I was super attracted to it but now it’s kinda gross to me and I find myself leaning between more asexual in my sexual attraction and more sapphic in my romantic attractions. I dont think I’m sexually attracted to my partner anymore which is strange because I did this for them in the first place so they’d love me again and be sexually attracted to me but while I love them I just feel repulsed by their sexual touch. Some days I do crave cuddles from them but the idea of sex is exhausting and depressing and gives me anxiety and just doesn’t really appeal to me and I only really feel “into” it when I’m drinking alcohol. Not really sure what to do honestly since I hate having to have sex when I really don’t want to but also my partner loves me again now and makes us romantic dinner dates and puts so much effort in our relationship getting me gifts, offering to pay for laser hair removal for me, complimenting me more, etc and I feel bad for not wanting to put in that same effort that I used to anymore because I’m just not interested anymore like that. I guess I’m just asking for perspective or advice. Maybe tips on how to feel less repulsed by sex or not feel as bad when I do it despite not feeling it or some way to fix my libido? I could just drink alcohol daily since that’s the only thing that makes me tolerate sex but ik id be killing my organs doing that