I hope you will be good to me like you seem

To make all of this, all of these years easier to cope with. There is a lot to process and we don't have to talk about it but it's going to take a long while to feel like I can let my guard down, for survival mode to not be how I function, and to be soft and vulnerable again. I really want and need this to be a good thing. I'm a lot of things right now. I'm traumatized, hurt, angry, scared, things I can't describe. But I will be good to you if you are good to me, too. My actions are reactionary and reflective of the treatment I receive from others. If I don't feel you are a threat TO ME we will be good and I will satisfy you in any way you need. I've always been a caregiver and prioritized the needs of others in my life. I will do the same for you but I need you to make me feel safe. Treating me right will come back to you three fold.