Trying to make my life better but I’m scared to tell my mom

First I signed up for a social skills group and I managed to get the price down to $35 from $50. But I’m too scared to tell my mom because she will complain about the price and having to take me and how I’m only making her life harder and all I do is drain money from her. She’s already paying $120 for my counseling.

I also applied up for something called the nonpareil institute. They called me today but when I asked them about my financial and transportation situation they just told me to ask my mom. They want me to tour 2 weeks from now but the times means my mom has to leave work early and she probably either can’t or won’t. And I know my mom will get mad at me and yell at me because it’s not a typical community college where I can get an associates degree like my sister is going to and she wants me to get so bad. I will probably only be able to get training and certificates which she won’t be happy with.

I also have no idea how expensive it is it doesn’t say anything on the website and my mom might shut mt down entirely saying it looks too expensive. And not to mention they specialize in tech and animation which I know is a collapsing industry with horrible working conditions and mass layoffs. It was a terrible idea to even contact this place in the first place but they’re calling me back tomorrow.

I feel like I can never win. That every time I try to make my life better I’m always just shot down by my mom and financial/transportation situation. I don’t even know why I bother contacting these places anymore if my mom hates me for it. I don’t know what to do anymore or where to start. My mom hates me enough for having to go to counseling weekly