So defeated

I’ve had three seizures in two months and have a neurologist but am trying to find a new neurologist who specializes in epilepsy and every office I go into, I’m 40 years younger than the average patient. My psychiatrist for the bipolar side affects of my seizure meds was so passive aggressive and pissed me off (which is hard to do), but it’s even harder to find a new one when everything feels temporary and nothing feels like it’s for a lifetime. I’m just trying to get through this goddamn week.