Please give me some type of support

I hate to be the kind of person to go online and ask for support but isn’t that what Reddit is for. I don’t really even know who to ask on my family. My mother faked a miscarriage, and my sister has an autistic child, whom I love very much, however she doesn’t have much time to be on the phone or text either that being said. Lover and I lost our baby bean while I was only nine weeks and two days along. I went to the hospital three days in a row and constantly told them something wasn’t right. I’ve accepted that sometimes these things do happen. I got to hear the heart beat twice and how I wish I would’ve recorded it for a keepsake. Lover never even got that chance. He had work early the next morning so I told him to go home and of course then the hospital decided that they’d go ahead and order one. My problem now is moving on. I feel awful reading on how some moms have went through entire still births, or suffered a loss due to S.I.D.S. And I can’t even cope with what I lost. Lover doesn’t like to talk about it because it makes him “sad”. So what do I do? How do I cope. I lost Bean about a month and a half ago and I just sit here and cry some days. I wanted to be a mother so bad and it was ripped away from me before I could even have the chance to experience it. Please give me some advice…. I really do feel so alone.