Don't know if I should drop out or not

Seeking Advice

I'm so conflicted. I (19F) am a sophomore in college and I'm struggling. I have to trauma dump to help everyone understand the situation best, so sorry in advanced. My mom and step dad are divorcing and it's a nasty one. They still live in the same house, things get violent between them. I have a little sibling, who I spent most of my life raising as my step dad traveled for work most of my childhood and my mom, who I hate and who hates me, wouldn't do much of anything.

My college is located in my town but I live in the dorms to get out. I'm fortunate to have a dad that pays for my dorm fees and supports me, but I feel like everything is just fucked right now. My sister is constantly texting me, scared and afraid of my parents. Then things calm down for a few weeks and they all pretend like nothing happened. My mom and I aren't on talking terms after she threatened to call the cops on me and report my phone as stolen when I wouldn't come home until the next day to figure out something with textbooks (I'd agreed to come home the next day, I was an hour and a half away visiting my boyfriend). My step dad obviously refused to do it, because he thought the whole thing was ridiculous.

I haven't been able to force myself to do much of anything. I feel dysfunctional. I go to work, I barely go to class because I'm overwhelmed. I'm tired.

I had to pull out last semester from all but one class as things got so much worse then. I have been diagnosed with depression and severe anxiety. I don't know where to go from here. Do I drop out? If I do, what do I even do then? I know my family would have a conniption fit, which rightfully so, but I don't think I can do well with everything going on.

Another thing I have to consider as well is the fact I'd be living with my parents again. I wouldn't mind living with my dad but honestly, my entire family stresses me out. Please help.

Posted Sep 3, 2025, 6:28 PM UTC

44
Loading comments…