I dissapoint everyone, can't do anything right.

I don't want to kill myself now, I just don't understand why anyone doesn't like me.

I cannot please anyone and I feel like im an embarrassment, and im eventually going to be be bullied, or made fun of like in the past.

I've always felt like everyone else was better than me and I had a teacher that made me feel like i was annoying teenage girl, with no intelligence. No one may understand because it's not a big deal, but to me it is for some reason, and that's hard to deal with. I feel like I inconvenience every adult in my life, but this one was always kind of miserable, and blunt, which made me feel more guilty.

I was forced by my dad to change my schedule, and take the teacher's marine science class. When I told him, "They sent me to this class" he replied, "like what 4 minutes ago?" and he was clearly annoyed, even exhaled a few times. And the rest of the class saw it and all looked at me as I walked in. I feel like bad and guilty for joining the class. This sounds very wimpish, but I felt kind of scared.

One time I think the teacher was saying bad things about me because he was looking at me as I was walking back to my seat and another person looked at me. I keep thinking what if he was talking about how slow I was taking to get back to my seat. I worry about what people say about me and I feel like a fool all the time. Maybe he was didnt say anything bad, but he's the type to be blunt and annoyed with everyone for typically good reasons, so maybe I was doing something wrong.

And sometimes I've felt like a slacker or an idiot. I was in a theater club. The teacher asked me if I could come during study hall. Which I did not have. So I thought I could ask one teacher during class if I could go. They said "yeah but it's not a study hall it's a real class you cant leave a real class to go to theater" and I guess I feel stupid and embarrassed. So I don't know what else to say. I guess me failing all my exams kind re affirms all the things I thought I was in his class. I don't even like saying tge word class or teacher anymore because it reminds me of how stupid I was.