Struggling

My husband was laid off from his job of fifteen years back in June (the company will be winding down operations by the end of the year. He got a good severance package, he qualifies for unemployment, and I know that the specialized kind of work he does means it might take longer to find a job (also his field is … not great right now).

We are both trying so hard to be hopeful and trust in God, but I haven’t been able to sleep for the past month. I wake up around 3 am and that’s it. He’s been better at staying positive, but he recently made it to the fourth and final interview for a company (plus he had to do multi-day skills test) only to not get it, and we both just feel so defeated right now.

My biggest fear is that we will lose our house, which happened to me when I was a kid. I can’t make the mortgage payments on my own. I woke up this morning and felt so full of despair that I prayed to Saint Jude. I keep a happy face on for my son during the day, but I break down after he goes to bed.

I don’t know why I’m posting here, I just felt led to for some reason. Prayers? Commiseration? Reminders that God loves and cares for me? Any of those would be so welcome.