Am I doing right? (kya mein sahi hu?)

humara cllg ka ambassador chun rha tha iima k liye. aur kul 7 log khade hue, us m bhi tha. aur mene kisi ko bhi call kr k ya msg kr k kuch nhi kha ki vote kro. par jo jeeta hai syd usne kiya hai. mujhe lga agr vo mere dost honge toh vo mujhe vote krenge hi. m kyo hi convince kru unhe. aur m kuch 5 logo se acche se baat hoti thi meri, hoti toh lagbag sab se thi thodi bahut par kuch 3-4 log the jinse thodi jyada hoti thi aur 1-2 toh mere sath bhi bhete the. aur jab polls hue, mujhe ek bhi vote nhi aaye. mere agal bagal walo ne bhi dusro ko kiya hai. ab mera mann toot sa gya hai. ab kisi se baat krne ka na kuc participate krne ka nhi kr rha hai. lag rha kya hi baat kru un logo se jo mujhe apna dost bhi nhi samjhte. freshers bhi hone wala hai humara par mera mann kr rha h ki kya hi krunga un logo se mil kar. vo mere dost hai hi nhi. mene kuch 1-2 se ache efforts daale the par sab efforts pta nhi kha chle gye. aur jeeta use 20 votes mile. aur muje 0. aaj mera kisi se bhi baat krne ka mann nhi tha. waise mein thoda introvert hu par m extrovert ka mask pehn leta hu, par sab chla gya. na dost ban paaye, na koi ladki hi achi mili cllg m , ab akele hi rehna mann kr rha hai, aur apne kaam se hi mtlb rakhu, pehle thodi bahut baat kr leta tha. ab vo bhi nhi krunga..aesa lag rha hai. pta nhi kya yhe sahi hai nhi, par i am not good group leader.