I hate body dysphoria

I hate my body, and like I don't feel comfortable wearing tight shirts because one I don't have trans tape or bi der I only have a sports bra, and I have apron belly look it up if you don't know what that is, and like everyone at school that doesn't know me thinks am a girl and everytime I look at myself all I see is a girl, and I tried masculine makeup but it just doesn't look right, and my dad isn't helping, he keeps showing me shit abt trans stuff and people do a reaction saying how "wrong" it is and he said if I think that's okay that there's something wrong with me like bitch it ain't my fault that i was born in a wrong body mean like rn am trying not to cry because I feel so damn dysphoric. All I want is to be seen as a boy.. Not a girl