It's annoying to always have to let go

I don't know what to say because it took a while to realize the intensity of this. It wasn’t until the last 48 hours that I realized this has become very real in my head (regardless of how much truth there is in that statement) and the fact that I MIGHT have actual feelings for you – I'm out here on a fucking trip being consumed by your thoughts. I can't afford this and I can't have someone haunt my consciousness this way every second of the day. So as per usual, I'm gonna have to let this go and that sucks. It's gonna be a long while of having to process all this and proceed with the process of having to let this go. Just wanted to keep record of this here. Congrats on making it to the vulnerable list.