I get turned on by rape fantasies

I'm 18. 40D tits. Rape has been my main fantasy for as long as I can remember. I've rubbed to it so much. I used to feel guilty before but not anymore. There is just something about being forced. Having no choice. Being manhandled and used like an object that just turns me the fuck on. I know I'm very young and very inexperienced but my fantasies and kinks are PRETTY dark. I'm not kidding. Wanna compare and see whose is darker?