Struggling but trying to stay strong!

I’ve been doing better in general and have a good streak going. But lately it’s been hard. There are so many things that I feel shame over, just the thought of being a porn addict humiliates me. Mostly though, the fear is what I struggle with the most. It’s not like I think porn is evil, but I hate who I am when I’m consumed by it. It makes me afraid to even masturbate or see anything provocative lest I become that person again. I don’t want to be that person. Has anyone on here been through this particular feeling?