I'm losing the battle

I'm 25 y.o, everything around me is falling appart. I see everyone as a potential threat, I'm hiding every single tears. I have no job, no license, no goal. I'm tired of people on social media. I'm scared of everything. I tried everything, therapy, medication.. I'm so tired, I want to end this bullshit. I'm schizophrenic since I'm 12, please tell me there's another option. Tell me life isn't that awful. I need help. I don't want to die.