Day 67 and a healthy cry

Was mostly a good day today. Took my mom out to lunch and the movies and had a good time. Driving home after dropping her off at her house, I suddenly felt the sadness really heavy again. I found a band recently and have been playing their music constantly. A lot of their songs deal with love lost so I think the lyrics are pulling me in harder right now. It was one of those songs that brought it on. I just cranked the volume, screamed along with the lyrics and let the tears flow. I found myself back in the deep hurt. Why couldn't she choose me? Will I ever be ok again? It was a release. I think I will have a lot more of that in my future. I am dreading it, but also welcome it at the same time. It hurts so bad but I have to get it out somehow. If anyone is interested, check out the song For Now by the band Thornhill. Keep going everyone. One day at a time.