feeling sorry for myself

I'm 28 never had a girlfriend or even kissed a girl. Still a virgin. Never even seen a girl naked in real life. I've always felt like a failure because of this. Feels like I wasted my youth and my life. My whole life just seemed like I couldn't ever get that 'moment'. Every girl I ever liked and had a crush on never liked me back. Feels like a void I missed out on something. Haunts me every day I wake up and it's pretty much the only thing I think about. I have insomnia. Some nights I can barely sleep honestly. Sucks going through life crippling loneliness while watching everybody else get to have their many moments and fun. I'm not that special. I'm short 5'5 and have a babyface that still makes me look 19/20, I guess all my defeats and failures got to me. I'm feeling broken and hopeless. All I've ever wanted, was to experience love, sex, cuddles, kisses, etc. All that good stuff. It would completely flip my whole world upside down even if just ONE girl was interested in me sexually and romantically. I can't even comprehend what it would be like to have a girl lust over me. I don't smile anymore. I barely laugh. I'm just dead inside. Whatever..... I realize I have nothing to lose anymore. I've felt the worst pain life has to offer and now I'm just kinda free to do anything