ramble abt my crush

so i sort of liked this guy in may 2025, and now its september but idk!! i graduate at the end of the year and i wont ever see him again and i always make prolonged eye contact with him, and he’s just so gorgeous. i wanna confess like at the end but im also terrified cause , idk. i usually confess to my crushes cause i’d rather be rejected than yearn, but this one i’d rather just yearn, and it’s so odd cause i may be delusional and may believe that prolonged eye contact actaully means smth but i don’t know if i try i may have a chance with him