Do downvotes irrationally bother you?

I don't know if it's an Autism or a trauma thing, but I'm super hypervigilant about downvotes on Reddit. I use Reddit to inaccurately get a good idea of how something I might say would go down in oublic--even though I know Redditors are not the full spectrum of human behavior (pun intended). At least on Reddit I get visual feedback to how I'm doing.

But that's risky because subs can be temperamental. When I see downvotes, I panic and have a mini meltdown. It often comes as a surprise aka I didn't think anything I did was bad, but I'm autistic so I've learned I might not think so but others clearly do think so I must err on that it was me.

So, I get a little panicky. I deleted a comment at -1 karma because the thought of being dogpiled on a sub puts me into a panic. Some of my favourite special interests (video game subs), I just don't go in even though it's my main special interest ATM.