Anyone else tire of the "sex-positive" attitudes among cum eating males?

The humiliation and self-debasement are what keep me in an addictive loop. I never like the taste. I never feel good about it afterward. But i have been coming back to it semi-regularly for over a decade. These days it's hard to find anybody who isn't just saying "Yum yum cummy cummy ✌️" or being otherwise obnoxiously positive.

Have i become such a curmudgeonly hipster that people just enjoying themselves is a very vanilla and boring experience?

Love to chat with guys who carry the same kind of shame and self-loathing and can get off with someone similarly minded.