I'm hurt:((

She was the first girl I had a relationship with because I was closeted at that time and I didn't want anyone to know I'm that type of person.

She was charming and I fell for her personality, I looked up to her as a younger person because I thought she was really cool.

And when she confessed, I immediately reciprocated those feelings because I didn't want to miss the chance of being with the person I wanted the most.

I was so desperate to hide who I was that I latched onto her. now she dumped me, and I humiliated myself begging her to stay. Two years later, I'm still a mess, proving she was right to leave

(Sorry for bad grammar, English is my 3rd language)