Catholic Abuse Divorce

My husband and I were married on 12/7/24. On 1/6/25 he got so angry at me he pulled out a gun and threatened to kill himself in front of me. On 4/11/25, one week to the day after miscarrying our baby, he trapped me in the bathroom. I tried closing the door, but he kept barreling through. (He’d later recount this as me hitting him while he was calm.). On 6/29/25 he kicked in the bathroom door, forced me into our bedroom, barricaded the door with his body. I was begging and crying, scratching at the door for him to let me out. Eventually I got my hand under the door and actually pried it from the door hinges.

Those are the big escalations. He and I have never been able to go more than a week without fighting. He gaslights constantly, and I started recording these fights. (The entire 1/6/25 incident is recorded.)

After the 6/29/25 incident I started yelling back. He couldn’t handle it, and filed for divorce (after I called the police on his decreasing mental health, and told him I have recordings of everything).

So after nine months of marriage we’re divorcing. I know I should be overjoyed by it, because it’s been nine months of hell, but I feel like my vocation is ruined.