why is life so so unfair?

everyday is a CHORE. most of the time i can't even do something without thinking, what if my life was better than this? what if i could lose weight easier and exercise without any consequences like bleeding excessively for weeks or what if i could afford all the groceries and supplements that would fit the standards required for this hormonal imbalance of mine to be able to lose any weight? i don't know. i just feel like i don't want to live with this or like this anymore