the world is too evil for me to cope with

politics have my brain SCREAMING and it's TEARING ME APART. I AM TOO SOFT FOR THIS. THE WORLD IS TOO EVIL FOR ME TO COPE WITH. i've always been the only left leaning person in my family and they're posting political swill right now. it disgusts me, it INFURIATES me. I am spiraling and i can't stop. i have always been alone. jobless again, i quit. too anxious/executive function failure to study like i said i would, it's been a month. i dont think my partner loves me, or at least he doesnt love me in a way that makes me feel loved. i a m a failure to everyone around me and i wish i didnt have to live anymore. I wish i could just give up and sleep.